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|  Rachel  "God Bless America! , They Fit !" After she tries on the new panties I bought her . I am so blessed she knows who to give thanks for ! How patriotic. Rachel blows me away quite a bit ,with her ever intelligent 8 going on 20 mind. Yesterday we talked a lot about inflation . Funny . We were sitting in at the Dentist a couple days ago and came across some magazines that had old pictures of years gone by . It had articles of old toy advertisements with toys costing a whopping 1.98 . Rachel laughed like crazy and says "1.98, you can only buy a bag of Marbles at Walmart for that much " So I take the moment to explain our economy and what inflation is . I think she is getting it . I took her with me for groceries and we discuss budgeting and she opts for an off brand oatmeal and points out to me how much we are saving if we get the value brand instead of Quaker. I think we have an accountant on our hands  I know she gets it from her Dad . Not me , I love the Brand name stuff , but with economy so crazy lately Sams choice takes the lead.
Baby update .. Our Baby Cakes is almost 3 mths old and talking to her play gymn and sweet as can be , as getting big at 14 lbs! Good Lord only 3 mths and wieghs as much as a toddler! She just is a good eater. She still nurse's for comfort at least 2 times a day usually at 4am , and 9 right before bed. It is intresting to see how she does both. She loves food so much I think she will eat anyting. Yesterday she was sucking on the nose of one of her bears , she must of thought is was Mommy , it was so funny. | | |
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Look how chubby our baby cakes is ! So I am now officially going through an Identity Crisis . I had my 4 year review with my boss yesterday . It went well. I excel in some areas , but of course need to work on others . Still gotta get that please everybody or the desire to do so out of my system. Any way other than that I think the Lord is taking me in a good direction these days. So now I am officially working and balancing the tight rope of motherhood again. Just when I thought I had it all figured out with an 8 and 7 year old here is my baby. It is so conflicting. John and I prayed for Sarah , God gives us Sarah , and now I have to find a way to enjoy her while getting all of the loose ends together. Just getting to meeting or to church , or even to the bus stop is such a chore! The sleep thing believe or not is the biggest challenge. Sarah is now almost 3 mths, and is still waking for that 1 and 4am feeding. John usually takes the early shift , so I can nurse her at 4 but then I am up again at 6 to get the girls off to school . Oh I love those moments with her , but not bing able to have that cup of coffee in the morning is killin me ! I must admit I buckle and have some ,,, just to get me going through the long day. Yesterday was just one of the first marathon days of the whole Christmas season. I have taken Sarah to the meetings I can , and then have left her with my Mom or Jess . It was hard I must say leaving her behind but I am a pro at this as I left Rachel and Lizzie behind when we were in Mt,Vernon. It still is hard to say goodbye even if it is for a few hours. Upcoming challenges,,, Getting Sarah to sleep in her own room and crib, and to continue to balance a new baby with an already crazy unorganized life! In the midst of my struggles , I am reminded of Hannah from the bible . I just do not know how she gave her baby boy over to the Lord. The word says she waited until he was weaned , which could have been 2 , or 4 or maybe even 6 but, I sharing my baby with the Lord and his will this year will be one of the hardest challenges I think I will have to face. When I had Lizzie and Rachel, I was able to stay at home , in fact I craved getting out of the house. When we went to Training , It was nice to send them to child care at 12mths and 2 . It was a little hard at first then but I had had lot's time as a stay at home mommy establishing those mommy times. I pray Sarah doesn't;t get left out , I get to take her with me lot's but it is not the same , she is with me but does not;t get 100% of my attention. Anyway . I know it will all work out. I have lot's of friends whom have had babies as officers on the field and they have been able to make it work , I know God will provide. I just am hoping I can do it! As I am typing have her bouncing on my lap and see she can sit with me while I type , this is a great sign ,,,, now I know how to e-mail with her and get stuff written . Any way she is starting to stir so I will update a little later when God gives me a pocket of xanga time. | | |
|  Sarah at one week home look at those pugdy cheeks! 
Our Sarah Joy sleeping so peacfully at 3 weeks no colic then  3weeks and a little smile no colic so far so good.
 With Daddy at 5 weeks then the colilc sets in and we find out she is allergic to milk and soy and so my nursing is of course hard as it is and the suplment formula now has to change to an Hypoallergenic.
Seven weeks with our sisters and one happy baby ! But boy oh boy from 5 weeks to now a total 4 weeks nothing but crying ! I thought I was going out of my mind! But now she is a totally different baby.  The first bath at 3 weeks  It is nice to have help ! What great big sisters! 
Tummy time 
So there you have it , pics of our pretty little girl . Sarah was born by c- section schld on July 8th . She had a rough start . The first three days after delivery she spent in the special care unit with IVs and light therapy for Jaundice. I had nuts carpal tunnel so I wasn't able to update on my site until just now. It took 5 weeks for my hands to return to normal. It was so bad I could not brush my hair hence the new spiky do . My first few weeks home with Sarah had it 's trials, low blood sugars due to nursing, then my milk supply took a long time to come in so , I had to supplement with formula . I have been able to sucessfully nurse and follow each feed with formula. Life was great with baby girl until around 5 weeks she delvloped a milk /soy protien allergy . She cried for hours and hours about two whole weeks until we figured it out. So now she is on Allementuem and breast milk and we have one happy , pudgy baby ! I absouluty am in aw,,, every day I look at her and think wow , I just can;t believe I am holding her ,or that this could even be possible ! I feel sometimes as if I was in a dream. The girls love her like crazy . Liz is more of the little mommy than Rach. She always wants to pick her up and and cuddle . She gives her a bottle so I can get dinner done or when we are driving to and from school. I still nurse Sarah even though it seems more of a hardship with my low blood sugars , I am able to give her little snacks throughout the day and then follow up with a bottle of formula. The bonding is nice , but most diabetic mommies can not go longer than 3 months . My milk is getting lower . Any way , we are so blessed and I will try to update more often but it can be a little challenging with a new baby and a ministry job.
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| Oh boy oh boy am I sure pregnant!! I have never been prego in the summer before so this is a bit challenging. In fact this whole pregnancy has been so dramatic. On Monday I went in for routine check up , and I am swelling like a balloon. They hook me up for routine monitor and yep there it is contractions. Only at 33 weeks. I really think they have my due date off , because with my other pregnancies I started having false labor at 36 weeks, not 33 three. Any way they check me and nothing is rocking in rolling so they send me home . Then last night hit . Around 2:30 in the morning I wake up feeling a bit sick to my stomach check my sugar. My lower back and tummy cramp all the way up to 4 in the morning. I wake John to go and get me a glass of water , and he was up in a second. Funny ,,,, whenever Lizzie or Rachel have nightmare or need that extra bit of water in the night , he sleeps through it ,,, but maybe labor he was up like it was Christmas. I tell him to go back to sleep and we will just wait and see , if my water breaks or they continue into the day then we know . I prayed to the Lord for his will. A baby born now has a 95 percent chance of survival and there are no worries except a tiny baby which is really not that tiny . She is almost 6 lbs now and real due date is 5 weeks away . Looks like we've got another 11lbdr on the way ! Needless to say , after tossing and turning , around 5 am I fell asleep and woke up feeling fine. Just another false alarm. My first false alarm was at 25 weeks , so lets just see . This whole year , the Lord has really taken me on a Journey. I prayed so hard for Sarah which is the definite name now. I remember one time sitting on the bed about 4 years ago , wailing out to God to provide a way for anther child .Now it is finally here. It made me stop and realize how much expectations we put on him . I pray to him for so many things, especially in a trial . When I don;t always get the answer I want, it makes me feel sadden, but sometimes I forget to look at the blessings he has given me . This baby is a gift, and even though this road carrying her is not what I anticipated, I still am having a miracle child. It makes me think all the time how children are a Joy from heaven. I believe here on earth , life is meant to be rocky , tried and hard. But God gives us little windows into heaven to make our stay here more worth it . My children are one of those. So even if my back is hurting and my feet are swollen, and as I type my hands are very numb, I wait with anticipation for the day our gift arrives, and when she does, it will make all of this year , and all of the things we have gone through as a family , worth it. | | |
| So a couple of days ago, I posted a not so nice piece about a colleage not telling us about a funeral. I said some really trite things. A lot out of anger , and I hurt some feelings. I regret this deeply. Some times it seems my wit gets the best of me. Especially in moments of personal frustrations. After I posted this , many peple saw the site , and held me accountable for my words. Sometimes , even a Pastor can be flawed. I am still just trying to figure it all out . | | |
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